now ive got troubles. i dono how to express it but.. dis is how it goes.

it started last wk. somewhere around thurday night. yea

ben smsed me at night. telling me next day maybe go watch movie and to bring hp ta school. okay loh. i asked him who bringing, and why bring. he told me the guy-meeps are bringing. willie-meep asked us to bring it. okay loh. then i went to charge my hp.

then! friday...

i was like.. "kana cheated" by them loh. saying go watch movie, in the end went bballing. >.>

hahas. i don mind la. cuz i decided to play bball le mah. then i tagged along loh.

then i started playing. then..sorry guys! im a noob here.

i din really know how to play PROPERLY. until a period of time when they wanted to coach me. then i was like.. *cham liao! sure kana scolded de loh!* then at that time i tried to lax myself, and cooled myself down loh. then i went.

know what!? i was like..teach until halfway thru liao!then alvin came along. and saw my performances. i was like. *omg. sian diao liao loh.*

then i din care much you know. until then, i started to have that feeling that he would scold me this and that. den i don have that feel to play bball liao. then i went to a side, then decided to be alone for that time.

then.. this happened recently lar. when i went around saying i hate somebody this and that. then those meeps really went to listen to me about da reason of why i hate ************** loh.

thanks very muchies!

did you watch channel 8's 9pm show ytd? it showed jia yi was announced to have depression? the counsellor (correct spelling?) told her that the treatment was to help the patients to recall the good memories and forget the bad ones. then jia yi recalled da bad ones instead.

now i feel like.. im having the feeling that im having the bad ones in my brain. it's like they will never go away loh. those happy moments i will remember de, but then bad moments are the scars that i will have it forever.

i was having this sentence flying around my brain.

- im trying to wash away the troubles i have now, but it seems that they are dirts that cant be cleaned away.

- im wearing the same attitude, i wanted to change it, but it seems i cant.

im confused. help!